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Unsatisfied with Life?

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Unsatisfied with Life?

Hey Friends!

So I’ve really been slacking on the blog front! I started my YouTube channel and tried to focus on that, but now I’m back (and I’m better!).

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Today I wanted to talk about the idea of feeling stagnant in your life. The feeling of progression is something that I constantly chase after. If you could tell, I’m always changing something, creating something, or finding a new goal to achieve. Honestly it can be quite exhausting. I’m starting to get to a point in my own life where I feel like I’m not where I want to be. I know I’m only 23 years old, but there is so much more that I want to achieve and often times I feel like what I am doing is getting me nowhere.

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Do you ever look back at you 10 year old self and remember all of your dreams and aspirations? I do it every day lol and let’s just say I’m not the teen star that I desired to be so strongly. I’m my sixth grade yearbook I said that my secret ambition was to be a teen star on Nickelodeon. I decided against Disney because those kids tend to go crazy and can’t shake the Disney image (I know that’s irrelevant lol). Let's just say that goal never happened. 

Regardless, in my current situation I just feel like I want more out of life. I keep creating new things and seeking out new opportunities, but I’m not really satisfied with where I am. One of my professors told me in that past that I need to be comfortable with being in the present and I truly agree with that idea. However, I cannot shake my desire to progress and improve and fight for the future I deserve.

I know this sounds like a sad post, but it really isn’t. I want to remind everyone that it is okay to not be satisfied with your life. It is okay to want more for yourself. Yes I have a job, degrees, and multiple support systems. I am so grateful for all of my blessings, but I still want more. I deserve more. We all have the capacity to achieve our dreams and goals and we should not feel bad for it. Let’s all keep doing the work. Keep searching and growing.

XOXO

DEV

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It takes a hell week...

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It takes a hell week...

You know when you go through those really difficult moments where you’re being pushed past your limits and to the point of exhaustion, but you can’t help but smile? You’ve tasted a Cfunk hell week. For the past week or so, I have been constantly (rehearsing until the weeeee hours of the night/morning) surrounded by people of different backgrounds who bond together for one reason. Their love of dance and faith in Capital Funk.

 

Maybe I’m just being a sap, but I think that is beautiful. Over the past few months, I’ve gone through periods where I questioned my love for dance. Is it something sustainable or even meant for me to do because it doesn’t pay my bills, but takes up 90% of my time? Dance is one of those pursuits where even when you’re at the top of your career, you may not have fame or fortune. You have to love it to keep it up. My relationship with this craft has been tumultuous to say that least. Is it really worth it?

 

Yes. Sure, there are moments I feel like my growth is slower than the person next to me (who cares?). There are moments I feel like I’m not where I should be or receiving the right opportunities. But after a 7 hour day in the office, here I am at 9:30PM knowing that I am exactly where I should be. My back is throbbing and I know I’ll be here for at least 3 more hours, but what really hits me is that I would not put myself through this “hell” if I did not love to dance. Dance is a relationship worth fighting for in my life and Capital Funk has made the fight so much easier.

 

After joining this team, I’ve realized that I am not in this fight alone. There is a room full of people struggling next to me to stay awake, to look their best, and to make Cfunk proud. Cfunk is a team of support. This week I challenge you to think about what it is that you simply cannot give up? What do you have to fight for and who is to your left and right helping you along the way? Cling to them! Thank them. What takes up the majority of your time and is it something that you are proud of? I believe in the importance of finding what makes you tick and who keeps you ticking.

 

Thank you Capital Funk for reminding me why I love to dance. Thank you for pushing me when I’m complacent and all of the laughs when I want to frown. Thanks y’all!

 

XOXO

DevDoe.

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