Before I get into this deeply personal (and introspective) post, I want to promote my new YouTube series that will be out starting Friday! It’s really fun and I filmed it with one of my best friends, so check it out and share your thoughts on the topics: Cinco de Mayo, Cultural Appropriate, Great Music, and SOUP!
I am currently 20,000 ft. in the air flying to Chicago for work despite missing my initial flight and waiting at the airport for 5ish hours. I am exhausted, but I can’t sleep. I’ve had something on my mind that I really need to get out. RECONCILIATION.
Lately, I’ve really been wanting to create lasting and real relationships with people. Some people may read this and know that I am referring to them, but I really want them to know that my intentions are true. I really want to be cool with everyone.
Over the past few months and even years to a degree, there have been a number of people who I felt have hurt me. Whether they meant to or not, I found myself resenting them and not wishing the best for them. I’ve honestly wished the opposite at some points. But this post isn’t about how much I’ve hated others or held grudges, it’s about fixing it. Recently, I had an in depth conversation with an old friend and I saw in their eyes that they really did care for me and wished the best for me. How can I harbor hate towards someone who wants me to be happy? Easy. Their actions for one reason or another caused the opposite. But in that moment when I was vulnerable and sharing my feelings of hurt and confusion, I realized that they had felt the exact same way. I saw that neither one of us wanted this negativity in our lives. After that honest moment I found clarity and the beginning of a new/old friendship.
We all talk about (or at least I have) the ability to cut people out of our lives, but do you really have that power? I know I don’t. I try to act like other’s action don’t hurt me and everyone is just replaceable, but it’s quite the opposite. Now I choose to focus on something else. The memories, the love, the moments of honesty have become what I try to cling on to. We all make mistakes, we all have hurt someone, and we are not perfect. BUT what we can do is make amends. I don’t have to be best friends with everyone or the people who I’ve grown a part from, but I REFUSE to be filled with hatred.
This is so sappy, but in 2017 (wow, we’re almost halfway through the year) let’s choose to love. Let’s choose to support. Let’s choose to forgive. Let’s give everyone the benefit of the doubt because we don’t know what anyone is going through behind closed doors. Think all of the serious things that you’ve gone through. Have you never acted out or done things you aren’t proud of as a result? I would hate for my misplaced emotions to end a relationship forever.
To those of you that I have ever hurt (maybe even unknowingly): I’m truly sorry. I don’t want to live my life hating anyone or rolling my eyes every time someone says your name. Let’s hang out. Let’s get to know each other. Let’s meet in the middle. We’ve all got a story to tell and lessons to share and no matter what we’ve gone through, I want to hear it. SOOOOO long story short: Let’s all love each other because President Tiny hands is spewing out enough hate for all of us.
With the deepest level of sincerity,
Devin (DevDoe if ya nasty)